Regretted and Regretting..

Dear.. I really regretted that i've asked too much and what i've done.. I know what i've done is unacceptable and make you suffer for the past few months.. I know i should not have ask and control you too much and seriously make me another Larry No 2.. What I've promise you is not working.. I'm sorry.. What i have promise you are not to control and bring you happiness.. But none of this is working...

I did bring you a month or 2 of happiness.. I've seen you smile and laugh really loud when you with me.. and seriously i really would love to continue this smiling and laughing of you through out our life.. I do hope i can spend the rest of my life with you.. you have gave me the confidence and love for me to continue my work.. and as well my life..

Dear.. I promise you i'll not ask you anything regarding your outside activities or anything related.. I will not interrupt anything that you do... Seriously i wont.. I know you need freedom as I'm dun have time and I'm not there all the time.. I should have gave you freedom.. and I know this is the time.. I would do anything in this world for you to talk to me again.. Maybe not in phone but please talk me while we are in msn..

I'm going mad with my parents and i do not have any friends that i can talk with.. Seriously i dun have.. You are the only 1 that i have now to communicate.. But now you are totally keeping quiet and do mind of talking to me again.. I dunno why dear.. Can you please tell me..

You might have something in you mind now.. or you just would like to be alone and enjoy your life now.. I dun mind and you should be doing that.. You are a beautiful woman that need to interact and that's what you do and that really attracts people.. But at least will you talk to me..

Last night i dreamt of myself became very very thin.. and dying soon.. I dunno why i had that dreamt.. Maybe I'm having my meal disorder.. I dun take my meal really regularly.. This is not because you not talking to me or anything but just I dun have the appetite to eat or do anything also.. Now when i work.. I do work with full force.. I dun mind working and find sales.. But when comes to food.. i dun eat much..

Do you still remember when last weekend i came over.. I dun eat much already.. The nasi lemak that we had at the Katong Laksa in Bugis.. I dun even finish that small packet of nasi lemak.. Then after the movie we when to the Xin Wang Restaurant.. I dun feel like eating.. i know i'm hungry.. But my stomach just dun feel like wanna accept any food.. I'm sorry to tell you this but this is not because of you.. (Maybe a little)

I do not need you to share the burden or anything.. but i just want you to listen and talk to me.. The weight of my current job is really heavy and my shoulder could not really hold on if no one are talking to me..

What can I do to make you talk to me again.. I seriously really miss you..