Mixed feelings....

Early November is coming and that long holiday and weekend as well....

I missed my parents and mocha... but I know I will miss you more.... I wanna spend some time with you but maybe you need to spend some time with your family and friends also.... Its really heavy heart to leave you here... but you made a decision to stay here... I respect your decision because I do not want to be the selfish one again...

I love you and I want you to be happy....

There are alot of event is coming this weekend....really alot....

1) Daddy's Birthday - Friday evening dinner
2) Gerald's Wedding - Friday afternoon (planning for wedding) and Sunday (the big day)
3) Meet up with Kenneth and Felicia - should be in Saturday night... (need to attend Gerald's Bachelors night as well)
4) Settle some issue with the goverment and bank... Monday afternoon
5) Dinner and lunch with my dearest..... MOCHA and parents... hahahaha - whole Saturday

Those schedule look pack... but all I hope that you able to participate with all those event with me...

It was a memorable weekend...

After work my colleagues asked me to join them for dinner....

and I say yes... and why not....

It was a great evening and well spend with best colleagues... shout till the hell heard me... hahaha

but during that time... I feel that my soul is not with me... seriously I feel so souless... my body and mind feel so empty.... i just keep on looking at my phone.... I really miss you...



I touch at Singapore ground around 6 in the morning.... it was raining...

Rush back to get some sleep.... received your msg at 1054... the message was disappointing at first but it was a shock at the end.... a great shock...



You might not need... but I do it because you need those to survive.... I'm not saviour or anything greater... but I reallly want to do my part...

You asked me to go to your place and have breakfast/lunch because your mom cook... I went in.... You are having your beautiful sleep.... You are so beautiful... feel like a baby sleeping in mommy's arm.... I really hope that I could hug you at that time....



I walked out and help your sons to clean their poo poo and pee pee... Xiao bai is so cute... Your son is amazing.... I'm done with everything including your laundry as well....



I went back to your room to see whether you wanna eat but I found sweet cherry... Very very delicious red cherry... It was wonderful time...



You getting ready and we are going out for a late lunch... This was amazing... Everything went so smooth and nothing happens yet.... We went to Yishun Manhattan Fish Market... It was a great lunch I ever had with you for the entire month... You are one good cutter... How in the world you able to cut a scallops out from a mussels... You are really good... I also love how you mix the chilli and mayoneise into my food... Nice baby nice...



After that we went to choose a birthday gift for your friend... A bouquet of sunflower with a teddy bear... it was a very nice decent gift....



Then we went to sunplaza to get your eyebrow trim... you are quite happy with their service...



we went back to your place to get ready... you were doing your hair and a little make up....

you are waiting for your friend to pick you up.... I'm really happy when you are happy and to see you in such a beautiful dress.... I love it and of course I love you...

After sending you to the MRT station I bought some snacks drinks and carrots... I went back to your place and feed your sons... Seriously they are like mad when they see carrot... Especially Lilo... haha

I went back to my place to rest after I done everything at your place... Bought a bottle of coke and a packet of snacks.... watched ' I am Legend' and fell asleep.... I was really tired after a long night and day.... but it was fruitful and beautiful.... totally worth it...

Went out to watch football at kopitiam at 1245am... got back to my place around 230am....

The next morning started to do my laundry and 'tang tang' on my bed... actually the whole morning I was hoping you would go out for lunch and a movie with me... I was just trying my luck to send you a message for lunch... and thank you so much you replied 'xin wang ba'... i jump off from my bus seat...

Waiting for you is something that is very happy... very exciting.. very 'xin fu'... I could say.. althought I waited not long... you wore a dress which is very very pretty.. I like the green dress... I still remember that we bought this dress from Far East Plaza... Seriously speaking I'm super duper happy.... very very excited... very very ..... no words could describe... you are BEAUTIFUL....

We went to XinWang in Sunplaza to have our late lunch... We order alot.. while we were having our meal.. we took some photos of the food and you.. thank you that you pose a photo for me...

Then we went to Causeway Point for a little shopping... actually we bought some pillow and bolster... Seriously I do not mind to become 2nd A.K... but just let me love you and take good care of you and your sons... thats what I'm asking for....

We went back to your place... and you needed a rest...

I went to get a pair of movie tickets at 735pm and a casual jacket for Gerald's wedding. It was abit rush... so hopefully I got the correct one...

You came by your ownself and straight away we went to the cinema... It was a good movie " Legend of the Guardian"... and surprisingly you like the show.... Anyway it was quite a good animation and story....

After movie straight away we went to Guardian to get something for your trip in the coming 2 weeks... You have a really good heart I can see it and feel it too...

Then we went to Mcdonalds to have a late dinner... You took out your camera and showed me how does Lilo look when he wear that 2 skull bulb on the body... Actually he look like he got 2 bright boobs... too bad I dun have the photos...

While on the way back I was hoping that I can see you a little longer.. and my wish granted... You asked to go in have a dinner... your mom did cook alittle bit more... so I have some fried mee and curry prawn... It taste really reallly nice... I love it... Never a doubt of your parent's food...

We did a little chit chat and you were asking me whether the legging were nice or not.. I was surprise you asked... and I'm delighted to answer you...

Actually I'm sorry that I stay abit longer that night because seriously I miss you and I do not know when I will see you again...

I wish you good night and kiss you on your forehead....

Thank you dear... You make that weekend for me... It was fantastic and crazy... and crazily in love with you...